Better Homes and Gardens

I'm all settled into my new place and ready to start my first day, officially, on campus tomorrow. I'm pretty excited for this week too because of the Consumed Gathering here in Edmonton. I can't wait!


I've propelled through so much change in literally months that I don't have words to give shape to what is in my heart. But, I'll try to find them... Since last winter there have only been three seasons in the world around me but there have been many, many, more in my Spirit. I sometimes don't even recognize myself anymore because of the renovations taking place in my heart and mind. Walls are knocked down, drawers dumped out -sorted- and put back in order, rooms repainted and now all the doors are open. This "forgetting who I was" isn't a crisis kind of thing, it is an adventure. I am discovering, daily, the fullness of life in walking in God's Spirit, and He is meeting me in deeply personal ways. I don't enjoy the things I used to, I don't even think the way I used to, my heart has become a wellspring and I am satisfied to the core with just needing Jesus.

I'll catch myself doing something mundane like walking down the street and then suddenly get awestruck for how God has worked around me and how deeply intimate His plans are. My very life is evidence of His enormous grace. I am so elated, to the point of tears, because of what God has been up to. At this very moment in time I could be in some city working as an artist and sessional professor, deeply disatisfied with wordly offerings of joy, and wondering what the point of toiling was. It was a sort of dark existance of running for an earthly goal only to reach it and find the reward pathetic and nowhere near a marker of satisfying joy. But today is different because God showed me a better way with a path that walks where Jesus walks. And that marker of joy is the cross because that is where Jesus died to pay for me so that I could walk with Him. This relationship with Jesus is better than anything I've ever had.

He has walked through all the rooms in my house as I've opened the doors, and now we are in the process of staging for an open house... This is going to be a remarkable year on campus. I can't wait to see how God moves in the hearts and minds of the students here in Edmonton. I can't wait to see heaven unfold here on earth because I love how He has unfolded it in my heart.