Promise

Today held such promise and joy like I haven't experienced in ages. Today the floodwaters were released after a brutal month of struggling to lift my head above a deluge of discouragement. Today I had fun.

Nothing remarkable happened today I didn't win the lotto, I didn't hit a home run, I didn't find a great pair of shoes on sale... the joy came from understanding how delicious resting in God's promise is. There was a sort of revelation I had this week about the relationship between labouring and resting in God. I've had huge struggles this month because I was trying to do everything in my own effort rather than enjoying the journey walking alongside Jesus. I quit trying to do everything myself and I was WEARY. He totally carried me and poured out so many blessings that I couldn't begin to list them here. So today I was released to joy, I was released to have fun. I hung out with my sister in the morning and a new friend in the afternoon. The sun was out and the snow has broken away from the streets. It's just so great to be able to just have fun and share time with people who reciprocate love! Life is so rich.

Last week was cloudy and threatening but the tornadoes are gone because I can hear God's whispers again. I think I let my heart get overcast because I took my attention off of my goal, which is intimacy with God, by looking at the storm brooding at my feet.

God's promises. Wow. They're beautiful and are healing to my bones.